i feel at times that my work is too derivative. rather than trying to seek out what is "good" at all times, i ought to focus on what comes instinctively. the best craftsmen have a unique style. i should feel free to explore my own ideas, as should everyone else
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i feel so old. most creatures of the earth will never live for so long as I have. most of them will never have a chance to learn what i've been able to. a year... well, that's really a long time. eighty. maybe I will be eighty someday, or sixty. in that time, probably more ants than people who have ever lived will die.
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faoggot
1 year ago
at five years, a deer reaches maturity. in the forest, the world is reduced to square miles. would the things I know matter to him? or are there things he learns, in those first five years, greater and more valuable than anything I have discovered in my great time?
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faoggot
1 year ago
hehe i am turning older in four days and i guess it makes me think i've got something to say. it's a big age but not big enough
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got first place in one round of prose today... okay I got fifth(of seven) in the other two rounds, but this is something
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faoggot
1 year ago
for the past two weeks I've had so little sleep. yesterday i awoke at 5:30 and went to bed at 2:30 after working intensely on my statistics project. and even then i could not find respite. i awoke again at 8:00, which was good, but not good enough. i immediately continued to work on the statisics project. i need to lie down for 16 hours and not move. I can feel my neurons atrophying
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even if it ends up sucking at least it's genuine. i can always tell when artists leave a piece of themselves in their works and often it is preferable
I used to worry about this too but then realized every piece of media ever is derivative & inspired by another piece of media which was derivative & inspired by something else.