context because i guess its needed: i made a post venting about journaling because mom looked over my shoulder and read some venting in my private not online journal and i posted something on my neocities profile venting about it while triggered because of my trauma related to being outed because I figured at least that would help me get my feelings out in the one place i knew they wouldn't look.
i still love journaling and blogg and all that and it still brings me joy but some exteremely stressful horrible shit happened yesterday and what mom did made it worse. I wrote a blog post but i couldn't post it because neocities was down
I am still journaling privately and publically but i shouldn't have written that neocities post on my profile that said: "fuck these people fuck journaling fuck my life" right after it happened
I forgot to write the reason why i was talking about this: there is a line from the song beautiful from heathers the musical that says "here we are. first day of senior year!" and I have challenged myself to listen to just that song all day because i find that funny for some reason.
i feel like that too. i feel absolutely amazing today! i feel like a girl (for the first time in a few days, Iβm genderfluid) so itβs nice.
dude i absolutely despise your parents holy crap Iβm so sorry dude.