surprise! new essay! my angstiest one yet!

I hope to see you blossom into even angstier work in time ♡♡♡ In all seriousness, I do envy those who can be angsty in an unselfconscious way. Sometimes it's hard for me to feel angry without trying to soften myself.

ty vashti <3 i still struggle with allowing myself to be fully angry too, i'm WAY softer irl. for months i debated if i should even bother writing essays, i feel like the combo of being angsty and not saying anything new comes off as obnoxious. although, i think one of the first authentic things i ever learned about myself is that i literally HAVE to be at least a little edgy, it's who i am, i'd go insane otherwise.

now that my site has slowly become p edgy i might as well keep going. i half-deliberately set my own precedent and what other ppl expect of me. plus i refuse to delete things when i hate them, so i'm not able to run from those expectations. despite all my fears i think it's good that people expect me to be myself, whether they approve or not. i hope you're able to explore something like that that works for you too.