Sorry only just saw your comment -- thank you, I appreciate it ^^;; It's been a few days since I wrote that depressed rambling but I finally did some things I've needed to do and I'm a tad more calm. A very, very mature and kind of friend is also trying to help me be in God more, as much as one can without a church. He's the most consistant thing in my life atm so hopefully that bodes well.
No worries! Your friend sounds rad, and glad to hear he's helping you out. The Lord bless and keep you both.