taking vitamin b i swallow it instantly pretending that i am taking a percocet it is the only thing that helps with the nerves now. after the accident. the rookie policeman sitting next to me looks at me, nervous. i avoid their gaze. "we'll be there in a minute" i tell them. inside my hardened exterior I feel fear. the suspect is armed... does this mean I'll have to wield a gun again? we pull up on the driveway...