I am!!! thank u for commenting. I will update soon, because a LOT in my life has changed.
you assume it's done just to anger people but the real fun is simply seeing how people deal with out of left field comments. it doesnt have to be done in a malicious way. i used to try and do it where it'd give the streamer something humorous/engaging to talk about, there's a lot of people out there otherwise streaming into the void.
yeah i get that same feeling of "not being depressed enough" sometimes, it can feel like really suffocating smh. i dont really know a solution for it, but just know that youre not alone in feeling it <3