back with a long blog post after i took a break from posting and going on neocities for a bit and worked on my website in the meanwhile, about page renovated (mostly), added a new theme for my index page, changed one of the songs and reordered them so they flow into each other better, we may be so very back

your solution for mobile in the open notebook page is so clever :o

thank you!! :)

may your hair grow back nicely! killing hope is similar to jakarta method, if you havent read it yet

@limovars thanks haha :') - i haven't read killing hope yet, but thanks for the recommendation, i'll be sure to check it out!

headache came back just as im going to bed, somebody up there HATES me... double-barrelled blog post for today (ignore the about page, im working on it tomorrow maybe) :)

i lost nearly dozens of friends after graduating, it was deeply demoralizing. maintaining adult friendships is so difficult when everyone's no longer in close proximity to each other by default. it took me years to summon the will to proactively spend time with my friends, but i don't regret it ever. hope you can find some respite from this part of your life

@cervidaze thanks for the kind words, and yeah its only been a few months since graduating and i can feel the difficulty already, but i will try!! because i have to (and i will try to relax as much as i can as well :) )

new writing entry after 5!! months, new blog post, new notebook page, we are back and we are balling!!

LET'S FUCKING GO

fountain pen page improved, pilot kakuno good, life chugging along

"been trying to think of something new to write for my writing page, but I don't think I've lived enough of a life to do so" bro's the realest one out here

@notesfromearth you understand the struggle fr... we WILL be seated when the first notesfromearth writing hits the writers desk!!

i love your fountain pen page, also your writing is very relatable. the less we experience, the less we can write about…

thank you @limovars, and very true...

i first heard of the concept of whalefall as the basis for this religion worldbuilding someone online was doing, tinkering with the concept of a dead god, so even as an envi sci student, that's always what i think of first when i hear it lol. but the real, ecological phenomenon is so so crazy to me too, especially considering the timescale (ecosystem can be sustained sometimes for over 100 years!!)

@girl-wonderlost that's so crazy, my gf had an entire ttrpg campaign based on the concept of lesser beings feeding off of a fallen god. she nicknamed it "godfall"

One step forward on the path to attain happiness. i shoulda put it in my writing page but i think i'll leave it as a new starting point for how I write my blog posts after this post (i.e. actually writing about my life) and then put the philosophising about my feelings in writing, yup im doing that i just decided that right now, ok easy. :)

This blog post resonates with me-- it mentions the same sort of thing I think I wrote about in my last blog post as well. I wish we could all be free from this shroud of irony and cynicism! It's a difficult ditch to dig yourself out of, that's for sure, and I am certainly not exempt. The journey to thinking positively is a difficult one, but one worth traveling. :) Proud of you!

@coffeeplant thanks for the kind words, and yes! may we all be free together!! :)

i think the job search is making me lose my mind, but i cant stop because i dont want to be in overdraft again and i need money mannnnn, haha its whatever though, this too shall pass or whatever

I locked in and finally changed my journal page into a writing one and in only 2 days!! I forgot this page even existed for like 5 months and hadn't read any writing since my last entry and while I was updating the page I nearly deleted everything there but I suppressed that urge successfully. No new writing, but now I feel like I can actually start writing something :)