and i absolutely shouldnt have doubled down because i was bitchy and people were calling me fat. i don't like being insulted, but thats nothing compared to the shit ive done to the community.
and i dont expect everybody to "think twice and forgive me". no. the shit i did was fucked up. i cant just say somebody was joking when they were going through a suicidal episode. it doesnt matter what my intent was, if i was just tonedeaf or whatever, it doesnt fucking matter. nothing i said was acceptable.