I'll tell you guys how the talk with my mom goes when I tell her in a bit but for now; I actually hate myself SO MUCH I was on omegle today playing guitar and idk what it was if the lighting or smth but in my throat you could VERY clearly make out a bulge and I got off as soon as I noticed, the way I make voices now has changed, like I input the same things but they go different places it's weird and I hate it
also I've heard people in my city are capable of getting hrt over the counter without recipee for 8€... THIS THING THAT JUST HAPPENED THAT COULD'VE BEEN AVOIDED WILL NOW BE WITH ME UNTIL I GET AN EXPENSIVE SURGERY! I love my decision making and research skills so much I'm going to throw a party in their honour
if the talk doesn't go well I at least now know I can do it behind their backs, not like I want to but if things keep moving this fucking slow while my body prepares the coup de grace or whatever the fuck I might just have to, even if she agrees, I will curl up into a ball and die if another permanent unwanted change hits my very much finite existence
also I've heard people in my city are capable of getting hrt over the counter without recipee for 8€... THIS THING THAT JUST HAPPENED THAT COULD'VE BEEN AVOIDED WILL NOW BE WITH ME UNTIL I GET AN EXPENSIVE SURGERY! I love my decision making and research skills so much I'm going to throw a party in their honour
if the talk doesn't go well I at least now know I can do it behind their backs, not like I want to but if things keep moving this fucking slow while my body prepares the coup de grace or whatever the fuck I might just have to, even if she agrees, I will curl up into a ball and die if another permanent unwanted change hits my very much finite existence