This is strangely similar to my situation, I can't bring myself to go back to my hobbies either. Perhaps we are all not alone in this

I just can say that I thank the Neocities' algorithm for putting your website and your backstory as recommended. Wish you could get more followers.

I wish you good luck on your journey. Writing kept me alive for the last 3 years even though I suck ass and I have a broken English. But it is still a great way of emptying your mind.