I like dissecting your blog entries probing for clues/insights/leads that have eluded my own existential questions. (You better keep writing! or I'll strangle you myself) :-p Have you considered the scary/interesting idea that you might actually be perfectly fine and more lucid/sane than meets the eyes?
Well, I might have something in common after all; I did foresee my expiry date to be somewhere in my sixties... :๐๐๐ Have you done any work/progress on your medium skills?
That movie suggestion looked "curious" to say the least; finally gave it a whirl and it was "way more" interesting and thought provoking than I expected; I guess that there's some truth about what they say about aquarius moons -- finally reached 18th yet? :)