Good words. Seeking peace and stability at the expense of career prospects is not weird at all, in fact that's also what I do, basically not overworking, not doing more than needed and tricking the job into thinking I am still viable. Maybe not the same as what you meant, but the core and end goal I think is the same. Keeps me sane and makes me not losing sense of self.

Regarding leaving too, I was also keen on it a few years ago, and the idea is still there, but not as attractive as before. I don't like the country, to not put it worse, but I am privileged to have been born and live in subjectively the best part of it that's kind of away from the main happenings and in a way noticeably distinctive from it.

I too realized I can be the change I want to see, even if on a small, almost personal level (but not quite).

saint-images: Indeed. I am glad I am not the only one thinking the same way. I also think that despite being born in a somewhat industrial and poor region, I am still a proud citizen. I also like the atmosphere and the people, the community. I was thinking more of pursuing my dream career but not overworking and doing just what you are supposed to do goes hand in hand and I agree with what you said :-)

I am sure Cipis is now exploring the better places... Sorry for your loss