i feel like ive lost my creativity and artistic skill entirely and that is a very terrifying thought

I understand the feeling, I went through a few months where I felt like I couldn't do anything to my site but I pressured myself too much to "make smth of substance" which didn't help my mindset either... go at your own pace and work on what you can, and regardless, your site is yours and will always be yours <3

that saying, if you ever need help w/ your site feel free to reach out! there's also tons of resources around for inspo and help too around neocities!