a short period that was on amphetamines (prescribed) was when I was feeling the best, but then there were some shortages in distribution, I couldn't get it, doctor tried some other drug that I got all the adverse effects I could get from it, I quit it, quit the doctor, years later tried another doctor, he wanted to try another drug, I did for a few months, nothing, quit it and quit doctor too

so I'm just rawdogging it because existence is meaningless anyway :P