Incredibly observant and eloquent...I think for many, young or old, a persona develops to hide what they seem to dislike within just as much as it does to seek approval from without. It takes presence to recognize when our actions are genuine rather than performative, and it takes awareness to discern the motives behind the behaviors around us.

You reminded me of brunch.

@surenaga What did you have for brunch?

Beautiful...

"In many ways that was a lost promise of the internet" - uffda, truth.

Damn. I hope the bullshit sniffers in your class are the type to be able to sniff the bullshit that is dealing with 30 kids at once and give you a break.

I'm smart enough to not sign up for anything where I have to teach 30 kids at once. There's no way I could handle that many.

If you need some waterproof ink recommendations, I've heard really good things about Noodler's Bulletproof Black.

I've heard about that one and I'll be on the look out for it.

I love the ink when it's on the page, but I've had some issues with Bulletproof Black clogging up my nibs. It's so maddening that I can't stand to use it anymore. Kaweco and Faber Castell are the two ink brands I've had the most luck with.

there's an inherent narcissim in being a creative - which the pleasure of others is antithetical to. by discarding the performative requirement to be given recognition or wealth by others, creation is allowed to be fulfilling in and of itself.

I think it's not bad to have some recognition for your work. But society skews too much in the direction of everything needing to be monetised to have any value. There's too much focus on making content, building audiences and monetising. Once you get too deep into that it stops being fun.

Considering how personal art can be, the societal idea of value equating to moneymaking potential is damaging to it, I think. Reminds me of when people's responses to when they think you're good at a hobby is "oh, you can monetize this!" Far too material thinking for something which, to me, is far more nebulous than that, and for which defining worth by capital does it a disservice.

Would you consider that perhaps the fact that your webpage has an audience while your private journal doesn't also contribute to the differences in writing style?

Definitely. I self censor a lot on my web page. You're not going to hear about all the new ways I've managed to embarass myself here.