"at this point i just desperately need the validation that i put in the work and made the right choices." Sometimes though, the only thing that will bring reassurance that you've made the right decision is your own moral compass, not external validation. At least, that has been my experience...
From the sound of it, you are surrounded by genuine friends. That is more of an indicator of your good qualities than *any* job interview could ever uncover.
GOWON!!!!!!!!!!!
EXACTLYYYYYYY