oh i completely understand that feeling of being restless because you want things changed, and you want them yesterday. but that's not how life works... i'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now! building a better life for yourself is never easy, especially with so many factors outside of your control, but i believe you can do it with a little patience.
Ive been thinking about this entry since yesterday... It's only natural to be frustrated at times like this. You know what they say about the best laid plans of mice and men... But you're strong! Just keep pushing!! Don't let that fiery spirit go to waste, ya hear? Some things can't happen any faster than theyre happening, but that doesn't mean you gotta put yourself on pause. Youre going to make it one way or anothr
and finally get to the life you want, need, and deserve to live. Something stable, not too hectic, but not too slow either... That coveted "walking pace" through life with all its struggles and joys. You have what it takes! Ganba!!!!
@strawberryreverie i'm glad someone understands. enduring the wait is so hard when you're impatient, but i will do my best. thank you for saying this.
@vivarism thank you flonne TT i needed to hear that even if things around me feel paused, i do not need to be paused...i think that is my worst fear, but i am sure this year will work out the way i want it to. hopefully the rest of this year is good to us both.
Gas induced BL obsession... it happens to the best of us. You've got a lot going on rn but I know the "brisk walk" through life is within your reach, and it sounds like you're finally prioritising yourself, too. I believe that as long as we remember our own values, and reach as often as possible for the things we love, then everything will turn out okay. Keep it up! Ganbatte! I'm rooting for you always.
@vivarism thank you so much flonne T_T i am rooting for you too. best of luck in all your endeavors. everything will be okay for all of us; i truly believe this!
oh, i wish you a safe flight! it's funny how our bodies know our feelings innately even when we dont think about it. i hope the move and everything else that comes with it goes smoothly! β₯ good luck!
I hope this isn't weird to say or anything, but I'm at work today & during one of my shifts lasts week (?), I read about your cat Gaia & I haven't gotten it out of my head since. You were a good owner & she was lucky to have you β‘ The absolute love for your cat was able to shine through in every word you'd written. I'm sorry for your loss.
@vashti Thank you. This isn't weird, it's very sweet. I'm glad it's clear how much I love Gaia and I appreciate your kindness. β‘
wow... so on brand of me to read this entry 20 minutes after it was published and then take a whole week to respond, right? i've been thinking about you a lot as you're in this transitory period in your life. suddenly, something will remind me of you and i'll wish with all my might that things are going well. it sounds like youve been through a lot of hardship-- pain you laugh your way through now, but really is
unconscionable when you get down to it-- and i dont know if i should say "sorry" or applaud you for surviving. both i guess!! what i really want to say is that you can endure this. you can make it through every torturous, too-slow second standing between you and the life you need & deserve. one way or another, you'll get there, okay? i'd say "just hang on," but that'd imply more waiting. i think at a time like this,
the best advice is "let go." when what youre clinging onto isnt working out, you might fare better at the bottom of the cliff...... you know in your heart what you need to do, and i'll keep rooting for you either way. one weeks-late comment and months-late email at a time <3