NO. 20
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the body was heavy and all filled with blood. the blood kept the body stranded on the earth.
maybe there was some part of that body that, in any other world, would fly. but those wings grew into bones full of gravity so that the body crash-landed front-teeth-first onto an earth made of concrete.a body incapable of stretching itself far enough to touch everything it loves at once
i birth myself into a world of hard matter by mistake and spend 100 years wincing. i remind myself not to take things so seriously. someday i might love myself for living in this body. closer to angels than animals perhaps on some other lightbeam i chose to withstand this blow. the things i loved on earth couldn’t even make it past my fingertips
and my skin
this body was keeping me from you all this time
i imagine your body and mine as a compilation of seconds dissolving into spacetimeyour favorite person tells you to smile so you gleami watch you dissolve into the images i create of youmaybe through these words the space between us dissipates
maybe through these words i give myself over to you.what if i didn’t have to hold you so far away from my body? maybe i could see inside of you. there was a piece of god smeared across your brain and i could see it dripping behind your eyesyou were a body like a star on this planet
you were a body like a star and i say so because of the way i could feel you in my chest
you were a hundred-year-long explosion and every piece of the planet smiled for you
i had the idea today that i might not recognize you the next time i see you. what if i can’t recognize you next time?
if i can’t recognize you, how will i find you?only our bodies could ever keep us apartthere is somewhere else happy and i cry sometimes imagining you there. it’s the best i could do.a party of bodies assembles itself in a sea of lightthere are swords all around you until we meet again sometime in the dark where we do not waste so much time trying to see what we areinto this elastic matter i depart. i will remember this body for the rest of my life. no. 20 is an interactive poem.
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