2023/07/18 07:15 maybe i should find a better avenue for this is this supposed to be a journal or a creative exercise i kind of dont know if its going to be a journal i should keep it off the web but if im actually trying to be creative i definitely need to be accountable to some kind of audience even if that audience is theoretical need to not get caught in the trap of its not quite perfect i cant release it yet visible updates in real time would probably help with that but also at some point im probably going to look back on this and delete it because the cringe is going to eat me this is so stupid i find myself so unbearably interesting when i havent slept and my mind is full then i read it again and realize its all directionless prattle and cant fight the need to purge it and start over with a clean slate this is why i journaled in pen not because it stopped me from going back to edit my thoughts because i decided for some goddamn reason i would journal in pen and i am a creature of unfathomable impulses i need to stop now now now hahaha writing this out is so laughably performative but then that was the entire point huh

2023/07/18 06:57 this is mildly silly i dont write like this usually this no punctuation no capitalization thing actually takes more effort it is kind of fun though and aesthetically i do like it rebelling against an idea of proper grammar and all that lends itself to the stream of consciousness way this is being created too but now ive started editing fuck i need to stop now this will be easier on my laptop im too lazy to get up though and this way i can pretend to myself im definitely trying to go to sleep

2023/07/18 06:33 i forget when i wrote this i should start using timestamps

2022/11/-- --:-- i guess this is here now i dont know if i like it yet though this is going to take some work should be fun though i like writing things i dont know if online is the best place for it but it is a place maybe i should put some more thought into this before i continue