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I understand being surrounded by people who aren't helpful to your cause. I understand blacking out too but I'm dissociative. I hope you're able to give yourself a break, even if just for a little bit. Sometimes you gotta step back from it all and that it's totally okay to do so.
I empathise with the feeling of cruelty. It can be a shell one falls into as protection. Perhaps that is the shadow around you.
Here's to better days, Blue β‘ I don't want to overstep anything here, so feel more than free to ignore or delete this, but I think rather than cruelty, that feeling you're speaking of may be jadedness & that is only natural & you are not to blame for that. I hope your pain eases soon.
no worries, you aren't overstepping anything. i guess i am pretty jaded, tbh. its a little reassuring knowing thats it not anything strange, though. thanks for the kind words, i think i just need to slow down a little
what you need is to re-focus yourself. couple of matches in a good ol' fighting games may help you slow down
Exactly! I get the same way & need to... I don't know, kind of go back to myself. I think rest & slowing down will do you good (oΛβ‘Λo)
Hobbies when liked enough become work in the end anyways. It just happens that the work's more enjoyable than regular work. Either way, one can't really work when their heart isn't in it. Resting's just as important as work, so be good at that also.